Up and Down

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This week had a lot of ups and downs in it.

The biggest was my little friends whom I had been working at becoming friends with at a partnering organization decided to send the girls to another organization instead of here. It's like we broke up. We broke up and they (the organization) didn't even tell me, I had to hear it from someone else. I didn't even get to say good bye and I'm a J (ENFJ, Myers Briggs). The oldest sister who I had been spending lots of time with even asked about me on Sunday, the day before they moved away. I had invested time, heart, money and love and we broke up.

The home they went to is a good one, one of the best. But I know they would have done well had they come here. I had plans, dreams and ideas. We were going to build forts in the living room, make mud pies, and learn to love ourselves and each other. It's just hard because it isn't what I planned. But isn't that how life often goes? We make plans but those aren't necessarily the way things will go. I'm not sure if it was in God's plans to send the girls elsewhere, but I know He can make good come from it. I trust Him.

I trust Him.

Even when my heart breaks, I don't get to say goodbye and when life doesn't go as I planned.

We do have another little girl here. She's great. She's Happy. No really, her name is Happy.


Comments

Anonymous said…
Hugs! I know how hard it can be when life lets you down. When you make such huges plans it does not turn out the way you want or expect. Lean on HIM girl, it's the ONLY way. Love you lots, praying for you.
March 23, 2012 at 2:07 PM
Sarah said…
"I trust Him.
Even when my heart breaks..."

Amen sister

And I bet it's just happy to have someone named Happy around...
March 23, 2012 at 4:39 PM
kathleen.giselle.handal said…
First, I AM AN ENFJ TOO AND SOO EXCITED YOU ARE COMING :)
Second, I am praying for you friend! That God wraps his loving arms around you.
HUGS and lots of exciting encouragement sent to you!
*GISELLE*
March 23, 2012 at 6:34 PM
kessia reyne said…
I hate it when really good, exciting plans fall through. Next time that happens to me, I'm going to remember you, Sonya, and I'll trust Him too.

Much love from Michigan!
March 23, 2012 at 8:17 PM
EMILY STAR said…
Harddd. I am sending love too. And excited to see you when you come here. :)
March 24, 2012 at 10:07 AM
Anonymous said…
Oh Sonya. After putting in all that time and love-that's tuff. But just think that when they need some extra love they will think of you and feel your love :) And as they grow they will be able to care like you because you put yourself out there and modeled real love to them.
Marilee
March 24, 2012 at 11:30 PM
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